My Ex’s Death Another Casualty of Gay Men Abusing Steroids
The phone rang and a voice announced himself as "a voice from my past with news of my ex-boyfriend, "Jim."" Immediately my mind went to other occurrences in my life when I had heard similar messages about others who were once very close to me. As expected, it was sadly similar: news of the tragic death of another man whom I knew and loved. Despite the time and anger that separated us in time, the details were both painful and shocking to hear.
Jim apparently died of a massive heart attack while working out at his gym in Florida. Sadly, I was not entirely surprised: I was well aware of his ongoing abuse of anabolic steroids, as well as HIV status. But, upon hearing this upsetting report at that moment, I was actually grateful that at least he did not die alone but had others around to comfort him. That was until I heard that he was found lying dead on the floor in the exercise room with no one around.
Thoughts of his dying alone with no one comforting him is something I wouldn’t even wish on my worst enemy; and most certainly, not on someone whom I once loved. Now that Jim is gone and his friends, co-workers and family are preparing for a memorial to honor his memory, it’s all the more important to remember the deaths of so many due to excessive steroid usage.
It’s well known that many gay men use steroids to promote muscle size and hardness. This is probably even more true for gay men who are HIV-positive, since many of them are legally prescribed steroids to counter wasting. It’s also true that having a pumped-up, buff body is a way of presenting an image to the world of health and especially fitness.